I was a determined student
Hardworking, with a 5 year plan--at least
I knew what it was that I wanted
Strong willed and stubborn
College and life--all figured out
I’ve known since I was 8 what I’ve wanted to do
It was a couple weeks ago when I became lost
With news of college rejection letters my plans had to change
5+ years in the making, I’ve only had one school I truly wished to attend
But it seems as though it wasn’t my time
Full of anger and confusion-- I wanted nothing to do with the school
Until I had an epiphany
I decided that if it were the last thing I do, I’d go to that university
I was sad and lost-- while everyone knows where they’re going
However, still lost, I’m no longer sad, I look towards the future
I imagine myself years from now, being grateful that I was rejected at first
And fulfilled to be attending the school of my dreams
A 5 year plan is currently being drawn up
I suppose I prepared a backup plan just in case this happened
It was heart-breaking to find out
I was adrift in a sea full of floaters
My years of work, dedication and aspiration are not in vain
For years from now when I look back, I will appreciate my being lost
I will appreciate my circumstances and its spontaneity
What I was will not transcend into who I will be
